| WOW. I have been on an emotional roller coaster these past 6 weeks.
I have been broken and I know I have so much more of it to endure.
Let's see. GOD, wow, he is so hard to read. Haha. His plans are far more imaginative than mine will ever be.
During these past 6 weeks I have been laying my life down at his feet, giving up everything to him.
Of course the process has been hard. The things I have been learning were uncomfortable to go threw and didn't make perfect sense...but I continued to allow God to break the decaying peices off of me.
All the while, never knowing what was to come.
Saturday October 18 at 11:30pm I got hit by something I wasn't expecting.
The sound of screams and tires screeching will be etched into my memory for a REALLY long time.
We were headed home from the state fair. Alec driving with Jeff in the Passenger seat...Me, Marideth and Morgan in the back. Alec must have not seen the red light and didn't stop..he ran into a tow truck causing us to spin...I could hear marideth's loud screaming and could smell the burned rubber. When we stopped moving i felt my face and realized the amount of blood coming from that area. Jeff began to yell "GET OUT!" I rushed out of the car and into the grassy area. I looked up at Marideth in shock. She scram "oh God! Alyssa!" and covered her face. I collapsed and Jeff was there to catch me. I can remember hearing him in my ears saying "stay with me, stay with me"..and his words of prayers. I rode in an ambulance for the first time in my life and I shook with fear the entire ride. I found out that i had a "threw and threw", in other words the hole in my lip went ALL the way threw. GROSS! The medic who took care of me called himself Weezle, he was really sweet.
At the hospital i went threw a series of events spanning over 5 hours. 3 x-rays 20 something stitches (they took about 5 out later) a cat scan, morphine, throwing up of blood...SO MUCH BLOOD :/ , oxygen and lots of doctors. When I finally got home and took a good look at myself in the mirror I became numb. Heart, Mind, Body...numb. I was mad at God, confused and hurt. It's going to take me awhile to let everything sink in...but i'm learning to take my brokenness and lay it at the foot of Jesus. Only he can heal my heart.
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| freedom is being completely lost in God and his wonders. knowing that he has you in his hands, loving on you and guiding you home. it's beyond measure with anything i have ever felt before.
I am in complete surrender and i'm so ready to see his wonders. He is such a mystery.
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| Life. I don't know where to begin. I guess by saying God needs to slap me around andd give me some clarity.
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| I live in Disney World I love a boy, who doesnt have any words to say.
I have friends who would do anything for me, and continue to help me keep my chin up and stay in Florida. There is a boy who makes me smile, who reminds me of who I am and what I have become. God works in mysterious ways. Prove to me that you mean what you say. |
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| you're making me sick to my stomach.
you're not suppose to be doing that.
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